I think I am fixated on light. After looking through my photos, I came across many that are just of light. Light shining on the water. Light filtering through dense trees to reach the forest floor. Or like this one – light pouring down from Heaven on a dark and stormy day.
Why this fascination with light? Not sure. But when I am down, light makes me feel better inside. It warms my skin and chases all the dark shadows away. It pierces through even the darkest clouds and dazzles me. I feel safe and comforted. I feel surrounded and secure.
Maybe that is why Jesus said He is the Light. Maybe that’s why I love the light – because it reminds me of Him. No matter where I go, Jesus – my light – is with me. No matter how dark it seems – I am always in His presence and in His light. I need only open my eyes to see it.
Years ago, when my children were small, I was awakened in the middle of the night by the cries of one of the kids. I stumbled across the room to the light switch so I could find my robe. As I stood there turning the switch off and on repeatedly, I thought that the bulb had burned out. My husband, who was very irritated by now, told me to open my eyes. It wasn’t that the light wasn’t working. I had my eyes screwed shut.
So it is in this life. The light is ALWAYS there. Sometimes I cannot see it because the clouds of doubt hide it from me. Sometimes it’s right there before me, but I am so fixated on the waves and clouds I forget the power of the light. Sometimes, I wilfully close my eyes, unwilling to see the light. For in the light, there is truth. In the light, there is nowhere to hide.
“It is He who reveals the profound and hidden things; He knows what is in the darkness, And the light dwells with Him.” Daniel 2:22
As I wrote in my previous blog, I have been struggling with depression. I was fixated on the circumstances and not on my Sovereign Lord. It didn’t happen overnight. It never does. I had allowed my heart to ponder the darkness instead of the light. I quickly forgot that light transcends darkness. I had screwed my eyes shut.
But God is good! He is so gracious, loving, kind and patient with me. He never left me and He never will. NOTHING can separate me from His unfailing love. He has helped me open my eyes and day by day is drawing me closer and closer to His healing light.
Like in the photo, His light has flooded into my soul – pulverizing my dark clouds. Peace settles over me as I lift my face to His light. I have nothing to fear. Nothing to hide. All is well with my soul.
Help me, Father, to keep my eyes open and centered upon your gracious love and light every day and every hour.
Blessings my friends,